I Am Uniquely Qualified

I remember the moment I fell in love with my ex-boyfriend (funny I have to put the ‘ex’ in there). I was at his house, we were shooting pool and laughing hysterically all night. I remember sitting on his lap and out of nowhere it just hit me like a ton of bricks- Jacinda fell in love at that very moment. That day plays over and over in my mind so much that I can almost feel the rush of emotions right now. Do you remember the moment you fell in love? Is it possible to remember the single moment you fell in love? So this takes me to my next question, can there be this same type of so-called, ‘defining moment’ for if you fall out of love? I ask because this same man I’m referencing I spoke with over the weekend, and after years and years of proving my loyalty to him he still finds it within himself to question my actions and motives concerning other men. Well guess what? To his shock and amazement that phone call did something to me. By the time I hung up I felt complete and utter......

This is how I feel at this very moment. I am my own enemy. There’s no one to blame, no one to hate just an overwhelming sensation of anger and sadness towards myself. How can I know the right and wrong things I am doing and consistently allow myself to do the wrong? This sickens me at the thought and I’m starting to really go crazy about it. I have received a sign from God saying, "Jacinda I have some amazingly powerful things in store for you which will allow your passion and talents to soar, but if you do not cut out all the junk in your life you will only make it harder on yourself and ultimately fail at what I have planned for you." You would think it’s so easy to just say, "Okay Lord, I’m going to stop everything right now because what I want out of life is way more profound then the negatives which shoot me down." Yet, as hard as I try, I continue to do what’s wrong day in and day out. I watch myself doing it as if I’m on the outside looking i...

Why is everything so difficult these days? We all need to be more health conscious, but all our quick fix choices are unhealthy substitutes. The other day I found myself in traffic and hungrier than ever. Home-girl is on a budget so it wasn’t like I could stroll over to Jason’s Deli for a hearty snack. My options were… well, you know what my options were because this is the same thing you face daily. This dilemma down right sucks! I started to get the best of myself when my thought process centered around how these unhealthy, cheap, food stops were conveniently placed on every corner for a reason. Why isn’t there a drive through subway? Why can’t our healthy options be cheaper? We all know the troubling weight concerns our country already faces, so why are we doing something more about it? I want the same amount of healthy food selections as I do the unhealthy ones and since I’m on my high horse I don’t want the healthy food places to break my pockets like they do now. T...

This is easier said than done, but when you sit down and think about making this choice it’s really quite simple. When life hits you with its best swings we should make the choice to smile and overcome. It’s fair to say we all know trials and tribulation await our every move, so why not walk into the storm with a positive outlook? I’m no saint at smiling in the face of danger. I was literally challenged Monday. No matter how hard I tried to remain positive nothing was working. I was watching myself be defeated by the enemy of negative thinking. I was heading down stream and focusing solely on the negative circumstances in my life. Since then, I have managed to pull myself out of the rut THANKFULLY, but I was seriously tested. I personally think it’s okay to take a loss at times. Take a minute of one-on-one time or take a day or even a week. Just remember the sun will shine again because you want it too! I told myself Monday during the midst of the storm, “Hey J, i...

I have decided to go on my first mission trip to Haiti. At first I was like, What the heck did I get myself into. I have no income as it is and now I’m going to add on another stress of having to come up with $1,100.00. The worries do not stop there, I’m also apprehensive about leaving the US for an entire week and possibly missing out on major career opportunities. If you can’t make ends meet as it is how in the world do you think you can go to Haiti? With these types of thoughts circulating in my mind, I found myself getting extremely overwhelmed. One of the requirements to go on this mission trip is to take a Life Enrichment class at my church Nationsford. I attended the first class last night. Guess what? I have absolutely nothing to worry about. I was reassured that once you make the CHOICE to do God’s work he will see you through. In life there are many obstacles we face with a realistic approach, but God’s word is firm on stating the Holy Spirit will carry yo...

I recently made a pact with myself to stop drinking and driving. I am the stupid idiot who feels she is perfectly fine at 3am to drive herself home. I made sure to title this blog as such because I want people to know how dumb, stupid, insane, ruthless and horrible I have been. I didn’t want to say, "I Don’t Drink and Drive or I Will Never Drink and Drive". No, I want you to know the cold hard truth because I have a feeling you may or may not be in my same boat. Am I right? WE COLLECTIVELY NEED TO PUT A STOP TO THIS TODAY!!!!! Here’s my issue, I’m a smart girl and I know drinking and getting behind the wheel is a gamble. The only problem is when I’ve been drinking I no longer remain this smart, sensible girl. The voice in my head actually speaks the opposite of reality. I usually feel I’m a little tipsy but well enough to drive my drunk butt home, which is completely false. My realization came the other night when I was videotaping a friend proposing to his girlfriend...

When someone calls you on your cell do you always have to answer? When someone asks you to do something does this mean you always have to say yes?? I don’t want to be rude in these situations but the cell phone is mine. When I’m staring at the caller I.D., I feel like the person on the other end of the phone is demanding I answer it. Again, this is my phone so doesn’t that mean a simple excuse like, I don’t feel like answering the phone should suffice? Then the other side of me says,why don’t I just answer the phone a verbalize that I will call them back later. Are we giving too much control to other people and things?? I just want to live my life and not feel bad about not answering the phone or telling a friend NO for once. Spill your thoughts