I Am Uniquely Qualified

This morning was weird for me. As far back as I can remember I have always been a person who wants to go to church, someone who looks forward to Sunday mornings. For whatever reason my parents didn't raise my brothers and I in the church. We went to Sunday school and occassionally hit up church for holidays but it certainly wasn't a part of our childhood. My church days started with my first boyfriend. Going to church with him and his dad sparked something in me that I didn't realize I was missing. After I bought my first car I started going to church by myself. There are times I make excuses not go to church. You may be able to relate I'm not sure but I say things like I'm too tired or I rather spend a couple hours with Ro before I go to work. I have even went as far as saying I don't have enough money to tithe (how horrible?). Typically, whenever I make excuses it takes days for me to forgive myself because I'm so angry for skipping service. Today ...

In church yesterday we sang a song about standing.   It was simple yet very beautiful.   I put it in context with my life.   I am in a battle ground as so are you.   It’s one of those places you hit in your life where every day you are diligently trying to win against the devil but he constantly places negative thoughts in your mind.   Thoughts like you’re never going to be able to save money again, you’re stuck and there’s no way out etc.? I wake up and say a prayer to Jesus.   I read my devotional.   I read a passage in the Bible daily.   I listen to my praise music.   Every day I try to remain positive so I can show Jesus in my walk.   Yet, every day I feel the devil has managed to break me down at some point.   Maybe I find myself complaining all day long or being judgmental.   I feel a negative spirit come over me and it disgusts me.   I feel worry come into my thoughts and then I begin to feel defeated. BUT thi...

 Jaybeato, Ma Dukes, Jacinda & Landon I am very close with my family. By family I mean my immediate family- my mom and 2 younger brothers.  My brothers live here in Charlotte and my mother lives in Florida. I would drop anything in a second to be there for any one of them if they needed me.  Recently I was stuck fighting myself on a decision that would ultimately hurt one, if not all of my family members. My brother Jaris "Jaybeato" is a musical genius. He raps, sings, and produces. He's been making music since he was a child. His music in my opinion is 'real music'. He rarely curses in his music and he rarely uses distasteful lyrics. I didn't say never, I said rarely. I love him with all my heart. I want my brother to succeed in a way that HE defines true success. Now to the problem. I have a hard time trying to find it in my heart to help promote his craft. I.E via social networking. In SOME of my brothers music there are lyrics that kind of c...

 Have you ever went through life knowing that something is completely off... just downright wrong? I'm in that zone. Everyone is happy for me. Everyone is looking at me. I should be happy about it too but my stomach is in knotts. It's not for me. I did it. I tried it. Now I'm fighting with it. What did I get myself into? Now I'm searching for a way to get out but all I can do it look up. God lead me. Govern my steps. Did you want me here for some particular reason? Should I feel this way? Did you lead me here or was I misguided? I regroup daily to put on that smiley face. On my good days I am great but on a bad day I can't hide it. I've been down this road before. I was happy to see that road come to a dead end. I know this one is coming. Am I going to ruin it? Should I be grateful for it? It's hard. Being stuck between a rock and a hard spot is the saddest place to be in life. Life should be enjoyed. This is why God put us here. When do we draw the li...

Love that makes me smile so big. Love that makes me cry so hard. Love that scares me to my soul. I know love is an action but have you ever felt so much love by just looking at 'The One'? I love him. More than words can describe. More than my actions can show. When he looks at me I see love in his eyes. Love so tender and so sweet. I feel love in his touch. I see kindness in his approach for we are still learning each other's movements. The love I have for him is more than I ever felt in my life. It's something I always yearned for. Its what so many told me doesn't exist. I believe in miracles and I believe in love. I love him. I am ready to give my all for this man. Ready to fight the big fight. The reason why I know so pure is because things that use to bother me dont anymore. When I notice something of distaste I simply whisper, "I love him" and in an instance it's gone. The issue then becomes my past and he has returns as my present. I...

I am rich in Faith. I am rich in Good Health. I am rich in Love. I am rich in Freedom. I am rich in Happiness. I am rich in Peace. I am rich in Family. I am rich in Friends. I am rich in heart. God has given us so many Blessings. Everywhere your eye can see there are Blessings for us to enjoy.   Such Blessings include the sun to warm our skin, the breeze to blow our hair, wonderful smells to enlighten our senses, stories to warms our hearts, music to move our feet, and food to speak to our souls.   Why on earth would anyone think of themselves as anything less than rich? The answer is simple.   There are many differentiations of the term rich.   For example, the definition of rich is to have a great deal of money or assets.   According to the Wall Street Journal, a net worth of $1.4 Million will put you in the top 5% of Americans.   Yet, the wealthy today view this figure as chump change.   This just goes to show you we all view be...

I'm currently sitting in Barnes and Nobles. What use to be my favorite place in the whole world, now has become a place from my distant past.   It didn’t matter how bad of a mood I was in I could always come here to relax.   I would get a coffee and plop my butt down with 5 books in front of me to escape my reality.   It was my place of peace until one day some man tried to holla at me.   To me it was simple.   Can’t you see I’m busy reading? But no this man couldn’t just leave it alone.   He looked at it as a missed opportunity if he didn’t speak.   He stole me away from my place serenity with his wack lines and utter annoyance.   FYI- Nice dude but I had to hit him with the, “I’m sorry but I’m not interested” line. Ever since that day my Barnes and Nobles experience has never been the same. That is, until today.   I had missed my appointment at the Apple store so I decided to grab a coffee and make the best of it.   To my surprise...