I Am Uniquely Qualified

Happiness fills my mind as I sit here. I have nothing to be ungrateful for. I have learned to settle in my own skin with the less than perfect wardrobe, tiny savings account and long list of ‘Wants’. I feel overwhelmingly blessed because everywhere I look God is meeting me at my needs. I might not be exactly where I want to be and I certainly have dreams and ambitions which are out of this world but at the end of the day when I look around I only see ‘Life at its Best’. Money pops up at unexpected times to get me through the month, friends jump in at times I least expect it, job opportunities seem to present themselves in ways I could never imagine. I continue to pray for God to lead me down the path he has chosen for me. Yes, there are still times of confusion about where he is pointing me to go and when but I feel I am exactly where I’m supposed to be. He is telling me to ‘Be Still’. We all have wants and needs which more than likely surpass what we can achieve in reality...

Why is it we’re never satisfied? We’re always wanting and waiting nervously for the next phase? I see the good and bad in this. The good is we’re always on the up and up. Looking for bigger and better accomplishments to take our life to the next page, this is the same thing as never looking at a new obstacle with fear and worry in our heart. These types of people will always progress in life. On the flip side, there are also people in the world who are way too content with being stagnant in their life and never wanting more for fear of rejection or failure. Too much of wanting is a bad thing, but not wanting at all is just as bad. We are supposed to simply LIVE LIFE and not constantly be in a rush to open the next door. If we’re always on the go we will miss some of the most important aspects to our life. God places so many blessings in our life on a daily basis. He can’t also lead a camel to water, it’s up to us to find these beautiful moments and thank him for it. We ...

Picture the worst possible event or chain of events happening to you in your life, the lowest moment ever, where surprisingly enough you are still left breathing. At this moment, do you still go on? With the tiniest fragment of life gripping your soul what matters most at this time? What do you cling to for support? How do you go on? I fear the moment when my faith is tested the most; when God doesn’t answer me, and forced to figure it out on my own. Again, what matters most during the weakest moment ever imaginable? As I ponder my weakness I feel the need to share with you this… The only things that can help us go on are faith, and love from family and friends. This is what we must strengthen now- on our good days, during our good walks and while the sun is still shining. There will be tough roads ahead of us and the nice cars, jewelry, fancy clothes and vacations will no longer hold meaning. In a low moment, during a test of life, when there is still a little life yet, ...

I still have love for him. Even after all he’s done to me, his family, his friends and most importantly himself. The choices you make every single day affect you and those who love you. Each little decisoin can have a huge effect. It’s as simple as getting behind the wheel drunk, selling that tiny bag of drugs, and/ or stealing that small piece of merchandise. These all have lasting affects. Yes, they can humble you but why risk it all to teach such a drastic lesson? Why does it mean your loved ones have to suffer because of it? I feel so blessed to have lived a life on the right and wrong side of the tracks. I chose to go on the dark side. I was only thinking about myself and never in a million years did I realize it could have affected anyone else. I am so happy I have learned and come out of those terrible years, in making all those terrible decisions, but it’s sad when I see other people making the wrong choices. The second you realize there’s no turning back, you reali...

For such a long time I thought I was crazy because of my mood swings, emotional roller coaster rides and not being able to simply answer, “What it is I really want?!” Today I laughed at myself and just said, “I love being me, I love being a woman”. Instead of viewing these issues as negatives, these are truly life’s treasures wrapped up in each beautiful woman you see. This is the beauty in us and what makes us so irresistible. It’s up to us ladies to give a little samples of the uneasiness and not to overdo it because then YES I have to agree with the men, this can be annoying and very unattractive. Here’s what happened to me today. Out of nowhere I felt a little emotional. Not emotional to where I was depressed and no there’s nothing in my life to be sad about. Yes, I want to cry, but no, not a cry my eyes out cry, but just a simple tear down the cheek listening to a touching song, watching an emotional movie cry. I just feel it in my body! I kind of chuckled at the tho...

Last night I was lying in bed and out of nowhere I realized I did not share my testimony. It brings me great pleasure to show you how far I’ve come in just a matter of weeks. If you scroll down on this blog page you will see a very personal and intimate blog titled, “I am Allowing Myself to Stand in the Way of Greatness”. I truly believe God was speaking to me during this time. He was heavily applying the pressures of life. He was telling me to get my life together because he was about to shake it up in ways I can barely imagine. He knew I could only handle what he was going to bless me with if I did what he asked me to do. The problem is, what he was asking me to do is the one thing I have been running away from for years. When you think about it, this is what we all face day in and day out. We are all called to do things we don’t want to do and things we have no idea how to do, but the simple fact is when he calls JUST DO . I’m happy to say that’s exactly what I did. I...

Its funny, when it’s time to go out or go on vacation the most important items tend to be lip gloss and “Do you have the camera?” I stuff my camera in all my clutches and opt to take the car key off the key chain just for everything to fit properly. I really believe this picture taking phenomenon is ruining the beauty in ‘The Moment’. It’s always, “Come on take this picture here, take this picture there, group shots, crazy poses (my favs)” once we spend half the night taking pictures, what did we really do- NOTHING. We got all dressed up to just take pictures. Sometimes we re-enact events just to take pictures of them. This is what I call ‘faking the picture’. Why can’t we wait for things to happen naturally and then if we’re skilled enough we will try our best to capture the real moment. This is what a picture should truly depict. Back in the day we captured moments, now we create the moment for the picture. What’s up with that people?