I Am Uniquely Qualified

I still have love for him. Even after all he’s done to me, his family, his friends and most importantly himself. The choices you make every single day affect you and those who love you. Each little decisoin can have a huge effect. It’s as simple as getting behind the wheel drunk, selling that tiny bag of drugs, and/ or stealing that small piece of merchandise. These all have lasting affects. Yes, they can humble you but why risk it all to teach such a drastic lesson? Why does it mean your loved ones have to suffer because of it? I feel so blessed to have lived a life on the right and wrong side of the tracks. I chose to go on the dark side. I was only thinking about myself and never in a million years did I realize it could have affected anyone else. I am so happy I have learned and come out of those terrible years, in making all those terrible decisions, but it’s sad when I see other people making the wrong choices. The second you realize there’s no turning back, you reali...

For such a long time I thought I was crazy because of my mood swings, emotional roller coaster rides and not being able to simply answer, “What it is I really want?!” Today I laughed at myself and just said, “I love being me, I love being a woman”. Instead of viewing these issues as negatives, these are truly life’s treasures wrapped up in each beautiful woman you see. This is the beauty in us and what makes us so irresistible. It’s up to us ladies to give a little samples of the uneasiness and not to overdo it because then YES I have to agree with the men, this can be annoying and very unattractive. Here’s what happened to me today. Out of nowhere I felt a little emotional. Not emotional to where I was depressed and no there’s nothing in my life to be sad about. Yes, I want to cry, but no, not a cry my eyes out cry, but just a simple tear down the cheek listening to a touching song, watching an emotional movie cry. I just feel it in my body! I kind of chuckled at the tho...

Last night I was lying in bed and out of nowhere I realized I did not share my testimony. It brings me great pleasure to show you how far I’ve come in just a matter of weeks. If you scroll down on this blog page you will see a very personal and intimate blog titled, “I am Allowing Myself to Stand in the Way of Greatness”. I truly believe God was speaking to me during this time. He was heavily applying the pressures of life. He was telling me to get my life together because he was about to shake it up in ways I can barely imagine. He knew I could only handle what he was going to bless me with if I did what he asked me to do. The problem is, what he was asking me to do is the one thing I have been running away from for years. When you think about it, this is what we all face day in and day out. We are all called to do things we don’t want to do and things we have no idea how to do, but the simple fact is when he calls JUST DO . I’m happy to say that’s exactly what I did. I...

Its funny, when it’s time to go out or go on vacation the most important items tend to be lip gloss and “Do you have the camera?” I stuff my camera in all my clutches and opt to take the car key off the key chain just for everything to fit properly. I really believe this picture taking phenomenon is ruining the beauty in ‘The Moment’. It’s always, “Come on take this picture here, take this picture there, group shots, crazy poses (my favs)” once we spend half the night taking pictures, what did we really do- NOTHING. We got all dressed up to just take pictures. Sometimes we re-enact events just to take pictures of them. This is what I call ‘faking the picture’. Why can’t we wait for things to happen naturally and then if we’re skilled enough we will try our best to capture the real moment. This is what a picture should truly depict. Back in the day we captured moments, now we create the moment for the picture. What’s up with that people?

I have been offered my own radio show on Charlotte’s Soul station WGIV 103.3FM . The back drop on 103.3FM is, it’s one of the oldest historical stations in the country. 103.3FM began its revamping process only a few months ago from gospel to ‘Old School Hip Hop and R&B’. I feel blessed to be a part of the beginning stages. In a couple years I truly believe 103.3FM will be a heavy hitter in the charlotte market. As we learned recently, there is a large minority voice in the city and when passionate, this voice can and will be heard… loudly. SPEAK UP CHARLOTTE!! The introduction of “Just Jacinda” is quite simple. It’s little ol’ me stepping out on my own for the first time in 3 years. I’m extremely nervous and excited at the same time. I would love for it to be a talk show format, but when starting out music has to be the winning aspect. I will play old school, relaxing jams and interject maybe 3 times an hour with short, creative conversation. As the station grows, I...

I remember the moment I fell in love with my ex-boyfriend (funny I have to put the ‘ex’ in there). I was at his house, we were shooting pool and laughing hysterically all night. I remember sitting on his lap and out of nowhere it just hit me like a ton of bricks- Jacinda fell in love at that very moment. That day plays over and over in my mind so much that I can almost feel the rush of emotions right now. Do you remember the moment you fell in love? Is it possible to remember the single moment you fell in love? So this takes me to my next question, can there be this same type of so-called, ‘defining moment’ for if you fall out of love? I ask because this same man I’m referencing I spoke with over the weekend, and after years and years of proving my loyalty to him he still finds it within himself to question my actions and motives concerning other men. Well guess what? To his shock and amazement that phone call did something to me. By the time I hung up I felt complete and utter......

This is how I feel at this very moment. I am my own enemy. There’s no one to blame, no one to hate just an overwhelming sensation of anger and sadness towards myself. How can I know the right and wrong things I am doing and consistently allow myself to do the wrong? This sickens me at the thought and I’m starting to really go crazy about it. I have received a sign from God saying, "Jacinda I have some amazingly powerful things in store for you which will allow your passion and talents to soar, but if you do not cut out all the junk in your life you will only make it harder on yourself and ultimately fail at what I have planned for you." You would think it’s so easy to just say, "Okay Lord, I’m going to stop everything right now because what I want out of life is way more profound then the negatives which shoot me down." Yet, as hard as I try, I continue to do what’s wrong day in and day out. I watch myself doing it as if I’m on the outside looking i...